smiling as if confetti were falling all around her

She also began responding to nature differently in Rhode Island, and incorporating its sensuality into her practice. Her “p tree” (short for plastic tree) was one manifestation, a branchy chair carved from foam and sprayed with white automotive lacquer. (“Kind of like how they make Ronald McDonald,” she says without a trace of sarcasm.)

From this article – Tanya Aguiñiga’s Bright Dreams, in Los Angeles City Beat magazine

Yay! for Tanya. I can just hear her voice saying that last bit without a trace of sarcasm. Our Tanya!!!! I’m so happy to see my old friends doing well.

song o’ the day

Black Affair – “It Goes Like This”

S E X Y.

From the band who “now live in a remote corner of Japan in the 1980’s and work only on music.”
Apparently.

(No really, it’s Steve Mason from the Beta Band and King Biscuit Time, and maybe some other dudes or something.)

Heard on their/his myspace page. Go listen to it, maybe make your weekend a little brighter. Well, a little sexier, maybe.

April music mix!!! wheeee

Yeah, it’s been a while. I’ve been hiding under a rock for a few months, what can I say. Some older songs, some songs from last year, some not-yet-released songs, and so on. Here ya go:

C’mon Chemicals
April 2007 mix from Robin
Download here (100 MB), available till 4/27/07

1. Tame Me Tiger / Violet Vector and the Lovely Lovelies
2. Northern Whale / The Good, The Bad & The Queen
3. Shade and Honey / Sparklehorse
4. There Is An End / The Greenhornes feat. Holly Golightly
5. Let’s Build A Fire / +/-
6. 10 Gallon Ascots / Tapes ‘n’ Tapes
7. Grizzly Bear / All Girl Summer Fun Band
8. Suzy Jones / The Manhattan Love Suicides
9. And She Would Darken the Memory / The Twilight Sad
10. Treehouse / I’m From Barcelona
11. Young Bride / Midlake
12. In A Dream / Corduroy Utd.
13. Jamcolas / Sister Vanilla
14. El Camino / The Rosebuds
15. Penny Waits / The Gerbils
16. Really Now / The Dreamlets
17. Sober / Katie the Pest
18. Heimdalsgate Like a Promethean Curse / Of Montreal
19. Bookshop Casanova / The Clientele
20. Amsterdam / Peter Bjorn and John
21. The Tide Is High / The Paragons

(Crossposted to the usual spots)

c’mon chemicals

Some days it’s so hard to be satisfied with just living you know? I’ve got such an incredible life, really, there are so many wonderful things going on. But that old craving for being in some gorgeous rush of vibrating intensity of living seems to have set itself on me again. I can’t create those times, just be open to them, I guess. Have I ever had moments like that? Yes, I think I have, those are the parts of my past I remember fondly now, I think. I’ve even experienced them as recently as a few months ago, I recall fondly the bell tower on a windy, sunny winter day. Those times make life worth living.

But then there are times like last Thursday, sitting on a bench outside Local 506, when I really wouldn’t have cared at all if the ground opened beneath me and the earth swallowed me whole.

Is it depressing that a lot of the explanations for the way one feels about living at any particular time can be ascribed to chemicals, be they bodily created or not? On a day when I’m struggling really hard with not letting my hormones determine the course of the day, I think maybe so.

Sometimes I think I have too much clarity about myself, and then other times I am rudely reminded that I have certain blind spots about myself. I’m trying not to let it all get out of hand, seem to have stopped documenting everything quite so obsessively. I haven’t been writing down the titles of every book I read in the little notebook my Aunt Susan brought back from Venice for me anymore, for example. But then I read an off-hand remark about a certain friend’s grocery spreadsheet, and I say “Oh!” and get a glimmer of curiosity about how to implement such a thing for myself.

But no. Fewer self-documentation opportunities, please. I need to devote myself to living rather than thinking about living and documenting living and talking about living (so stop!) and so on.

In other news, there may be a ghost in my house!